Sunday, September 6, 2009

Addendum to my earlier post....

I've been doing a lot of thinking today about what I would say to the one who has hurt me if I had the opportunity to say something face to face.  I know I could have listed all kinds of things that had hurt me.  And while I can think of one or two, I really am feeling hard pressed to think of all the little things.  That is how I am...I get angry but it doesn't take long before I am passed that moment and I, as always, am left trying hard to remember details.  However, that doesn't diminish the fact that I have still been hurt.  What worries me though is that, despite my declaration that I need space and time away from it all, I could easily forget that and end up back where I was before.  And so while I may not feel the anger any longer, I still need to remember what had me feeling that way in the first place and I also need to make sure I take the time I need to ensure my heart is healed.  Which leads me to my decision to take six months without dating.  I need to concentrate on continuing to grow and learn about who I am and what makes me tick.  I need to take the time to grow in my faith and give God time to show me what He wants for me.  And one of the things I am going to start learning is about boundaries and how to set them and stick to them!  Yes, I'm getting there...have come a long way from where I used to be but I still have a long way to go.....

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